JudgeMental

Keyboard on Freestyle Mode.

Rain pouring outside, the eerie sound of the fan and my heart beating so fast. Loss for words and sense, but full of pride to go with it. My throat feels like screaming again, itching to say what i want to say. Maybe. Maybe not. Pick it up, start again. Give it all then just sit there see it fall. Like a plane crashing, like glass breaking. I don't know. I don't know where this is coming from. Tell me where.

I feel like fighting, feel like killing something or someone. I hope not, I'm not known for that, or am i? honestly, i don't know what I'm known for right now. As far as i heard, I'm a lying, cheating, dirty guy. I'll take that. I'll take it. Just keep silent, i won't speak in my defense. It's their opinion, no offense taken..
Just really really hurt. But i can't let that stop me, got to live my life.

What i really can't stand is someone very special to me gets affected. I may not be special to that person but i don't want that person to slip away. I'm just hoping that everything would turn out alright. I have never pretended and i have never been anyone else. I am me. What you see is what you get, because i never pretend to be someone I'm not.

"you know me better than they do. I don't care about what they think or say about me, i only care about what YOU think. that's all that matters to me."

i want to tell her that.

Rain stopped. Only tears remain.