Analyze This.

*this is a peek into the mind of the author, bear with him.

it's 2 in the morning and I'm still not in the mood to sleep. A lot of things in my mind, a lot of things i want answered, but i guess its better not to ask. I'm trippin', so as Gino says. Yes, I am. Dammit. And i don't know what for. I tell myself: "just stop, stop this, you're running into a brick wall", but stopping it is like not breathing or not eating. Even though it's against the odds, maybe 1 in a million, maybe that 1 would be it. maybe not.

big brown eyes, unruly hair, the duck walk, the unexplainable charm. Oh, i miss it all. But don't get me wrong, i just miss it, nothing more, nothing less. It's just that nothing will ever be that "unexplainable" thing in my life. There will only be one, but I'm not saying there won't be someone to surpass all those, you get the point.

I stop. for a while, let me be romantic. dream. it's nine pm and no one would expect a visitor that late, the day's practically ending and the night's culling you to bed. Hear your phone and your doorbell ringing at the same time, you pick up your phone and head for the door. It's me, saying I'm here outside, come out. You come and see me there, two dozen roses in hand and at my best.

back to reality. that won't be possible in a while. I'm too Idealistic, but i guess it's better that seeing all the negative side of things. I wonder why i stare out the window of a moving car so much, maybe because it's when i start to think, start to make sense of things happening around me. Philosophies, Rules and Regulations, these are just guidelines, it's up to me to break them for the better. read this: i have no tricks up my sleeve, I'm not a magician or an illusionist. Never been.

college coming up, maybe we'd forget all these. maybe I'd look back and say: "oh yes, i knew that person". I don't want that. but if it's whats bound to happen, than let it be.

still have to get that "thing" for that. haha. analyze this!