The Two Letters.

I'm heading home, riding this tricycle,
when I happen to gaze up the night sky.
I remember you and I begin to smile.
I miss the times we spent together,
the mischief, the stories, the laughter,
just being next to each other.
You make me feel so good when you're around.
You draw my attention without making a single sound.

I don't know why you have this effect on me,
You make me happy without even doing anything.
I can just stare the whole day and be satisfied,
I can just talk to you the whole day and won't even get tired.
I'm jealous when other people treat you special,
I'm jealous when they call you by the nickname i gave you.
I feel so angry when you're angry,
I feel so down when you're sad.

You're simple yet special,
You're humble yet smart,
You're unassuming yet pretty,
You're something different.

I sigh, I get off the ride.
How I wish I could be with you tonight,
to see these lights and sounds around me right now.
How I wish I could stay with you,
lay down the grass and watch the night unfold.
I'd kiss your forehead and bid you goodnight,
kiss you once more and hug you so tight.

I nod my head,
I must be dreaming again.
I cannot muster the words to tell you this,
I cannot even say what I really feel.
I'm Scared.

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* fiction...
* wrong decisions. confusion.