It was a cold night. I looked at my watch,
the clock was ticking nonstop, but i didn't care.
I only want to stay here with you.
The skies were half filled with stars and the buildings were covering the moon.
I'm trying to hide this happiness, but i can't help but smile.
The streets were empty, it was peaceful.
No noise, just the sound of the wind passing by.
I don't want to hear another sound but your voice, your laughter.
I looked at her. She were staring up the sky, smiling.
I began to smile too, as i can't help but be glad that she's beside me.
She noticed, smiled back and asked why, i just nodded my head in reply.
The streetlights were on to us, it felt like a spotlight chasing us.
I held her hand and we walked towards something,
but i can't remember what it was,
more like a telephone post, we entered an alleyway.
Her green jacket makes her prettier, her eyes shining like the moonlight.
I stroked her face, she sweetly closed her eyes and hugged me.
i dont want this to ever end.
I just held her head, kissed her and froze in time.
i want you to know i love you with all my heart and soul.
i'm not lying nor pretending.
Then i woke up.
9:00 AM on my clock, time to get up and go.
Streetlights and Alleyways.
Chasing the Sunset.
Here I am,
pouring my heart out on the streets, happiness i cannot explain.
It feels so different, feels so overrated, feels so unreal.
Pinch me, i must be dreaming, now the sun bids me goodbye.
No. please don't let time fly by.
Just hold me. Hold me now.
I don't want this day to end, i don't want this to be just another memory,
I don't want to go home. I just want to stay here for eternity with you.
The sun sets, chase it, so the day wouldn't end.
The stars blocked my way, Night is here again.
No, please. No.
Running as fast as I can, chase the morning. Chase my heart.
But to no avail, the darkness has spread his wings and blocked out the light.
I forgot to bid her goodbye, i forgot to hold her hand,
i forgot to kiss her, i forgot to hug her so tight,
i forgot to touch her face, i forgot to stroke her hair,
i forgot to tell her that she's the only thing i wanted,
i forgot to tell the sun that she makes me crazy with her smile.
I forgot to tell her that she's the most beautiful girl to me.
I forgot to tell her i Love her.
I forgot.
I'm afraid of darkness, i may get lost.
I'm afraid of what will happen.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
Somehow, I'll survive.
I hope the sun will rise up again, give me its warmth.
I hope our someday will come, soon.
No use of counting if Forever is what you're waiting for,
No use of Chasing the sunset, It'll be back.
And sweeter the morning will come,
for is sweeter the warmth that I've found.
I don't want to be in another's arms,
I just need her charms, that single look,
the sound of her laugh.
I don't need another woman, no other.
I stopped running, let time give its healing.
One last look at the sunset, one last sigh,
Hoping the years will go by quickly.
Wishing to be with you, for all eternity.
I'll wait for that Someday,
Because if that someday comes,
I won't let you go again and together, we'll forever be.
Always and Forever.
Circa 1979
Standing outside my door, looking out the streets.
I'm looking for something, but i don't know what it is I'm looking for.
Something's missing, something ain't right. It isn't the same, no.
The skies roll by and my dog's barking relentlessly at nothingness, it's the same old scene again.
I just want to lie face down on my bed, just let another day pass.
Threads of pillows cover my face, i don't want to wake.
I'll pretend to be asleep, pretend that i can't hear them calling out to me.
The eerie noise of this empty space fill my ears,
Thrown down, Get up, i won't win anyhow.
Sudden feeling of sorrow and depression, a sudden doubt on myself,
How will i wish for something easier, when you got what you deserve.
The steam of milk awakens my senses, I realize that it's over.
I may live today, tomorrow I may Die.
There's no use of counting, when forever is what you'll be waiting for,
There's no use of saying things, when the ears are all closed.
I sit down, stare at a seat in front of me, it's empty.
I look down, begin to pray, It'll be all fine, be okay.
Thousands and thousands of unsaid, dying words, none of them mean anything,
If I myself can't even express it, It won't mean anything.
My dog stopped barking, maybe he's got the attention he wanted,
My Senses started working, maybe I got back my head.
There's no battle afoot, no things to be done today,
I just want to lie face down on my bed, just let another day pass.
I'm standing outside my door, looking out the streets,
My lips gave out a smile.
It Isn't the same, maybe better or worse, nobody really knows,
I may be alive today, dead tomorrow,
I did what I had to do, this heart holds no sorrow.
Make My Mark.
It's been a semester. Things happened, things started and ended altogether. It's been some months, it was hard, tiring and downright disappointing. I know it isn't easy, but I also know i could've done better. Things aren't entering my head lately, and the work has doubled. I can feel the pressure and the heaviness of the load. I can feel my disappointment. To see my grades barely passing is not a pretty sight. I can't even say that I'm satisfied. But i've got to admit, I really did "okay" compared to some people I know, but i guess that i just have this expectation of myself that i didn't acheieve.
I want to make my mark, i want to make a change, i want to prove something. I want to make a difference, i want to be the one who'll dictate my future. Rizal said that the Youth is the Hope of the Country, i want to prove that, one way or the other. I've been pretty optimistic about things, i hope i can do better the upcoming semester. I have to prove that I can be the Best, Make No excuses. Prove doubts wrong. Migs Out. [sorry for such a short post.]